Today was audition day for our local theater’s next performance. My daughter and I both did “Annie” in December, and I was not really feeling up to doing another show, but she wanted to audition for this next one. It is called Lullaby of Broadway and is a bunch of medleys from Broadway shows. So, we ventured out on a day when no one in their right mind should have been on the roads! It was a mess of snow, wind, and ice. Thank the Lord for his protection! We were there for a little over 2 hours, and my daughter felt pretty good about her audition, even though she was fairly nervous!
Anyway, all that was not my purpose for writing tonight. While we were there, I got to talking to the mom of one of my daughter’s friends. We found out that we have much in common, and we just had a great conversation! It was encouraging, and a lot of fun.
Then, my thoughts ran this direction: my husband is searching for a job. We have talked so much about looking for a situation that is closer to most of our family, in the Pacific Northwest. I’ve wanted to live closer to my family for a long time. However, it just never seems to work out, and now, God is bringing people and circumstances into my life that are tugging at my heart, bringing a desire to stay here. I’m just at a loss. I don’t know what to think anymore. I was so convinced that the best thing was for us to move closer to our families because of parents getting older, connections between my kids and their aunts, uncles, and grandparents, etc. But there seems to be this catch in my spirit that says that that may be something of my own making and not necessarily God’s best for us. I’ve been praying in a certain direction for so long, and now I’m wondering if I’ve been blinded by my own desires. Hmm…I guess I’ve got some soul searching and praying to do. Sometimes the hardest part is being honest with myself and willing to admit that I may have been ignoring that still, small voice. Sigh.
Wow, what great insight…may the Lord give you clarity and discernment to work through these areas.
I had very mixed feelings when we were thinking about moving here. Yes, we were moving a lot closer to parents, and that was a huge draw. But I was leaving friendships that I'd built over 12 years, a job I loved (!), and my Mom's family. They had adopted my kids as surrogate grandchildren, and I was very close to them.
But I think that I knew in my heart that this was where the Lord was directing us at that time in our lives.
I think that we pray that God will provide what we need, and then we trust Him to do so–when the opportunity arises–a position for your husband, then you have to determine if He is leading you there. Time will tell.
In the meantime, enjoy the relationships you are building where you are. What gifts God gives to us!
Hi Lisa, it just may take more time for God's will to become clear. Sometimes when I feel at a total loss as to what to do, the only thing to do is to keep on keeping on. Then over the course of time, so many problems/decisions take care of themselves. But you are right about prayer … I often have to tell myself that when there is no answer, Jesus is the Answer. Bess
Praying that, as you pray about the situation, you will have clarity.
Selfishly, I'd really like you to stay put so that next time I make it back we can meet face to face ;o)
Hugs & Prayers!!
we have never moved and MOST of our family lives here including all grandparents, cousins and most of the aunts! SO I have no advice except to pray. Pray and then be quiet and still and listen. Take the lead from your hubbie and accept his decision. God closes doors and opens windows, but we have to still be diligent to find out which one is for us!
I will be praying for you to have peace over the decision.
I believe I am in the same position as you are in! We will pray for each other — and for special friends to come into our lives no matter where we live.
Praise God for the encouragement that he gave you today.
In my current location, I have been very lonely for 4 years. I wonder often if it is God's protection to keep me focused on my family and not outside influences since my Children are so young. But, then when I wonder, I often just ask "Can't you at least send me one person?"
Having had lots of adventures in moving in my lifetime, both in and out of the U.S., I sure do empathize with that emotional tug you feel. Praying for God's clear leading for your family – he will provide it in his good time! 🙂